Yes yes hold on :)
I never thought I’d hear you say that. I love you too, Quinn. God, I can’t really remember a time when I didn’t. Don’t be scared, okay? I’m not the same dude I used to be. I’m going to be here, through everything. I’m going to do the right thing. We’ll do it together because I’m scared of needing you too. But I do.
Nothing needs to be as complicated as you’re making it. If we want to be together, then we should be. We’ll figure the rest out as we go. I’ll do everything I can to make you happy.
Is my smile really dopey?
The both of you have mine too, so can we just be together? I mean, that’s all I want..
I think its pretty amazing that through all of my pushy, overzealous and neurotic mess you still are able to say you love me. Kind of been trying to ask for the words and knowing how you felt without having the taxing job of saying it first. But that is terribly unfair to you when you deserved to hear that from the start.
You know you discredit yourself a lot. You call yourself stupid but you sure know my behaviors well enough to call my bluffs.
It is completely dopey but adorable in a monkey way.
Yes, yes. Like for real , fully committed, no running, together.
I’m not the smartest dude in the world, but I don’t think this is just pregnancy hormones. There’s something else, Quinn..
Babe, there’s nothing I’ve wanted more than a family with you. I mean, you should know that. Sure, hooking up with a bunch of chicks was what I used to love to do, but you’re so much better than that. Our son is so much better than that.
The only life I want to live is one that has you two in it..
I love you…that’s what it is. And its kind of scary for me to need someone else like I feel I need you.
There was just so many things left unsettled with the baby, us, and just everything. But you always seem to make them disappear when I see your dopey smile.
I know the life I want is with you and the baby because you both have my heart.
I mean.. I can’t lie and say I didn’t feel like shit. I always feel like I’m doing something wrong with you, Quinn.
I don’t know how to be what you want me to be because it’s always changing..
It’s called pregnancy hormones and you think they’re bad now….
You’re all I could want and it hurts sometimes because Im scared you wont be living the life you want strapped to me and a kid.
I.. .Uh… Did I do something? Cuz honestly, Q, I have no idea.
No you didn’t do a thing wrong. Don’t go being nice to me now, not after how I’ve treated you.
So here I am.
Quinn had been avoiding Puck like the plague. Dodging calls and even as going as far too plan her daily routines based upon locations he was least likely to visit, like the library, which had become an amazingly relaxing place in the last couple weeks. So there she sat in the children’s reading section with her leg’s crossed sorting through child reading books to find a suitable one before she made any purchases.
The night two weeks ago had been all too real for her. Both of their walls had fallen down and they were completely vulnerable to each other. That night as she let him hold her she completely succumbed to the notion a future as a family was reachable. But what did she do? The only thing she knew best which was run. Her boy hopping in high school was based on the same principle that she was a runner. It was usually triggered by someone seeing to deep into her heart, often other men found that didn’t have a real place in it because she gave it away to someone else at the age of 16. She knew there was no apology top Puck that could make up for what she had done. All she could do was accept her behavior and move forward.
Closer and closer game her due date and the less and less prepared she appeared to everyone. It was making others nervous around her to the point they became emotionally exhausted with the blonde. But Quinn was not one to emotionally reach out to people made hard by her perceived opinions of her. But there was one person she was sure would not judge her no matter how bad she screwed up. Taking out her cellphone, a no-no at the public library- she attempted to call Rachel’s number, meeting only the ringing at first.
college has been kicking my ass the past few weeks and I couldnt find my login..probably with putting jew in all your emails…